*Doing it alone -refusing help, wearing struggle as a badge.
*Reading women’s magazines and comparing/ hating myself as a result.
*Watching the 6 o’clock news everyday because that’s what grown ups do.
*Shopping for fun and lamenting my financial status.
*Being a slave to notifications …my phone now lives permanently on do not disturb.
*Keeping things just in case ..in case What? All the shops shut and I urgently need that 80s tutu I wore to a party when I was 17?
*Only buying new , some of my favourite and most treasured items were a charity shop find. Well crafted with history and kit sat in landfill.
*Saving stuff for best ..and looking / feeling crap 90% of the time but looking amazing at my second cousins neighbours funeral. For an hour.
*Being nice at my expense ..ie people pleasing – at work (sure I’ll stay late), in relationships (I’m totally fine with no label…or commitment…or self worth) with my time ( counselling friends and family for hours even when I’m yearning for solitude..)
*Ignoring my feelings…the nagging feeling in my tummy, my gut, my intuition.
FEELINGS ARE OUT INNER GPS
There is nothing worse than being told ‘I told you so ‘ by your reflection .
Feel good. Do you. Spread Love .